A bit of introspection this evening as another con came and went, and another Basara conversation happened over dinner…
I really do have to thank foraz-zora
For those of you who don’t know ^That person right there is completely and 100% solely at fault for creating my Keiji.. But I guess I latch onto him a lot more than a lot of my characters because he came to me at a pretty dark time in my life…I never really wore it but I was pretty depressed, and I had a lost a lot of faith and trust in people and in myself..
But keiji came along and really left me in awe.. because here was someone who was pretty depressed, but he still tried to do what he thought was right with every breath he took, and who, no matter how he felt, remembered that putting smiles on peoples faces was something to strive for, and if you managed that, it was a good day. I can never be quite as optimistic (or as nice) as him… but he really has become an inspiration to me.. more so than any other character I have yet to come across, because I feel like no matter where he goes, he always manages to inspire someone.. and since he has done that for me.. a lot of times i feel like I should try and do the same because of how much positivity he has given me when I was/am at my lowest. I tend to think about him a lot in that way, because I had gotten so cruel, that sometimes you can get farther with a kind word and a smile than a sneer and a cold shoulder.. i’m rambling now but he is just so refreshing and inspirational to me in so many ways.
and without that fateful introduction to Keiji… i never would have gotten this far in anything
OH MY GOD I didn’t mean to create this but somehow I did. I love you my child.